Things are progressing nicely

I’m moving in an upward motion. Well, maybe not entirely upward, but mostly. I quit the job i hated, and am now looking for another one. I know, i know, we’re in a recession and i should be lucky to even have a job, but oh well. I quit so it’s too late. So i’m working my ass off to find another full-time job, and when i get one Angel and i can finally start looking for our future fabulous apartment. These things are more important than school right now, but i am worried about how the heck i’m supposed to go back to school while working 40 hours a week. I know that i actually can do 40 hrs of work a week while taking 12 units at City, but “can do” and “should do” are entirely different things. I am capable of it, until the mania becomes too much to handle and i fall apart. At least this is what has happened in the past. I may, mental health wise, be doing better than i ever have before, but how about we don’t test that one. Eh, i’m really not that concerned about balancing school and work right now. I’ll figure it out when i need to.

 

Nia is in town and i really hope i can see her before she leaves.

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Ugh. This consistent self-doubt has become a self fulfilling prophecy. I keep thinking that i can’t write this paper, for sociology, and now i can’t. Mind you, i’ve only really tried once, but i can’t even think about this paper. It’s a stupid measly essay and i’ve written hundreds like it before and there is no good reason as to why i can’t do it again.

Maybe some ideas will help… Ok, so, given that a social group = a group of people that share a self-identity, why or why aren’t the homeless part of a social group? Any thoughts?

School and things

So school is officially underway. Again. I am taking Intro to Sociology and math. Elementary algebra. I know, i suck. I am absolutely determined to finish this semester, and do well. Sociology should be fun, we are going to have 5 tests (only 3 of which count) and 1 final, and 4 papers (again, only 3 of which count) at 4 pages each. Which should be relatively easy, i have enough bullshit skills to crank out a few 4 page papers. My professor is funny, though he kind of has my sense of humor in that he crosses some lines. Like the other day, he made some joke about chicks who swallow. I was kind of like “really? Is that appropriate for class?” But i like him. He does make frequent references to pornography, which livens up my day at least. And my math professor is this REALLY CUT vietnamese guy. Like, seriously cut. He ’s really loud and moves around a lot, which is good because it’s a two and a half hour class twice a week. It really doesn’t seem that long though, which i guess means i’m paying attention. I’m really hoping to pull off a C if not a B in that class. I’m striving for the B, but i won’t be absolutely crushed if i don’t get it.

So i have a pretty full schedule, with school 3 days a week and some manner of therapy all 5 days a week. This is a good thing for me. I’m pretty excited.

All i want for Christmas…

I’m mostly asking my parents for books this year. I’ve been getting way into reading. I want Glue, Porno, and Ecstasy by Irvine Welsh, and almost anything by Charles Bukowski. I’m reading his book Women currently, i’m only on the 45th page and i *heart* it. My brother has Factotum, which i also really want to read. Also, if anyone has any book recommendations for me, i’m so ready. Books are so much more preferable to real life.

I asked my dad what he wanted for christmas, and he just told me to take him out drinking sometime. So i’m going to make little drink tickets, yanno like the ones you get in clubs (if you’re cool enough) and clip them on the inside of a card, and so every time he wants a drink he has to cash in a ticket. I think it’s cute. For my mom, i think i’m going to get her a bunch of stuff from Lush, like bath bombs which are AMAZING. And smell delicious. I got William a live Black Flag DVD of them in the UK in 1984. I really want to watch it too. The guy at Amoeba said that i made his day when i bought it so now i feel all cool. 

Is all.

Peer Pressure

So, new blog. I am here, this is me, i frequently have nothing and so much to write about so it may be a bit confusing at times. Just bear with me, i suppose, because you know you love me that much.

I guess that’s all for right now. I’ll be back.